just a rainy sort of day!

please please please
no more melodies
they lack impact, they're petty
they've been made up already
please please please
no more maladies
i'm so tired of crying
you'd think i was a siren
but me and everybody's on the sad same team
and you can hear our sad brain screaming

give us something familiar
something similar
to what we know already
that will keep us steady
steady, steady
steady going nowhere

please please please
no apologies
at best they buy you time
until you next step out of line
please please please
no more remedies
my method is uncertain
it's a mess but it's working
and maybe if you tried it ou
you won't like it when you're crying out

give us something familiar
something similar
to what we know already
that will keep us steady
steady, steady
steady going nowhere

*please please please*fiona apple

pet peeves!

1. grapes were one of my favorite childhood snacks. my mom would use them to try and wean me off reeses peanut butter cups, which didn't work, but i loved grapes anyways. i have a memory from around 4 years old, of finding a single grape on the corner of a shelf in my room. for reasons i cannot remember, i deviously decided not to throw it away or clean it up. once in a while i would come back to look at it and chuckle, but for the most part i forgot about it for a couple weeks. when i finally remembered my lonely grape, i returned to find an ugly shriveled RAISIN. since then i cannot look at raisins without the feeling of being profoundly deceived. i don't know if i was the only one in the world that didn't know grapes eventually turn into raisins, but i still can't look at raisins the same way.

(the picture has nothing to do with anything, but it was cute.. and i'm sure the puppy survived)

2. sounds of mastication. i don't know what it is, but it really creeps me out and puts me in a foul mood. if i accidentally think about it while eating, i get grossed out by my own sounds of chewing and feel ickier and ickier...

in the wee hours

things i hate about public restrooms:
-when the faucet trickles instead of runs so it takes an awkward 3 minutes longer to wash your hands
-when the toilet and stall door are so close i have to straddle the porcelain before i can close the door
-when people are not kind enough to make sure they leave the seat decent for the next person >:[
-being midway in a poo and having to freeze/make shuffling noises because i have performance anxiety
-lack of water pressure during flushes


these would be in addition to the obvious smelly/dirty/no toilet paper

i need to poo but i'm scared someone will walk in on me.. O_o

murphy's law?

april showers bring may flowers, but why do the skies have to be so damn grey?

i almost forgot i was having a good day.

oh banana pancakes..
i was a baby today